Summer Depression
Just like in the song by 'girl in red', I seem to have been hit by a bout of 'summer depression'. The worst of it is thankfully over, as I now have the energy to at least take care of myself to a reasonable standard. The next issue is how to encourage myself to work on what I need to work on.
Some people may find it ironic that one could feel depressed in summer, as the weather is nice and everyone else seems to be having fun. But for some, the season can bring boredom and sadness. Structure is necessary to keep me busy and productive. I actually impressed myself with how "on the ball" I was with that math class, and afterwards, my motivation and energy kind of fell apart. I also lost my job, meaning I really didn't have anything to do all day.
I'm not sure whether to blame it on my ADHD or not, but I find it extremely hard to work on the projects that I am passionate about. YouTube is what I want to do, and yet it has been hard to work on the first video. Maybe it doesn't help that the video concept revolves around a task that I can easily fail at, requiring me to start over to complete. (No spoilers!)
Moving away and going to College will hopefully get me back in a routine and motivate me to put hard work into the things I want to achieve. But I know it's up to me to make that happen. The basics of life are surprisingly hard for me to stay on top of, like taking my meds or drinking enough water. I try this or that app, but good habits are hard to keep. Life goes on, though, so all I can do is keep trying!